contentedly numb you could say

First off, some news that might be bad or good

I'm on the list to go to Iraq again come January/Febuary for another 7 month stint. I knew it couldve happened but the percentage was pretty slim. I must have some luck, good or bad we'll have to see. Although this is far from a definite "yes" It still means that there is a good chance I will be there come next year.

Oddly enough I kinda want to go.

Iraq was the first time I actually did what I was trained to do, and I enjoyed having that purpose to my job. Back here in the states I either sit around and wait for something to do or get sent off to do other peoples jobs. It was nice to fully realize what I was trained for.

There are some unavoidable negatives with going there, aside from the obvious. My biggest concern is the fact that life is on hold for me while Im over there, I dont get to go to college or play music or have a relationship. Its not to bad every few years but if this becomes a yearly thing then that will just suck. Also, my family is already freaking out about it, mainly due to me telling them I had another year or so until I would go back.

Another wierd thing is how much Iraq influenced me creatively. I sketched a whole lot out there initially, but what really went on was all about the tale. I started really thinking about the story that focuses around Anji and characters that interact with them. I have so many things that are in my head that I cant possibly put on paper fast enough. Not only that but as I started to think about the story my art slowed down to a crawl. Even now Im still trying to regain a tenth of the productivity I had when I first got in Iraq, artwise.

Once again I find myself needing sleep, tommorow I am doing sprints for 3 miles. Must rest.